I’m tired and struggling to come up with something to write. Thats not to say that things aren’t happening here, but I’m having trouble getting up the energy to be passionate about the things that have happened - because they keep happening over and over again.

I’m tired of walking everywhere because buses and cabs can’t get down the main streets of Jerusalem because President Bush’s entourage is here.

I’m tired of hearing helicopters roam the skies, looking for...i don’t know what. If they’re American, they’re concerned about the security of the President. If they’re Israeli helicopters, they’re concerned about the security of everyone else.

I’m tired of the rocket attacks. A mall in Ashkelon was hit the day before yesterday. 15 people were wounded, four of them (including a mother and her toddler) were injured seriously. And 87 people were treated for shock. EIGHTY SEVEN. The newspaper has a picture of the toddler’s bloody shoe, left at the scene. I want to vomit.

I’m tired of talking about peace while the Palestinians talk about Nakba. How do we move forward if they can only look to the past?

I’m tired of the UN. In general, I think they are relatively useless. And I’m tired of them making stupid mistakes like commemorating with the Palestinians on their Nakba day.

And speaking of the N-word, I’m sick of it. The Palestinians aren’t upset that the Israelis took some of their land 60 years ago. They are upset that we exist, in general. And I’m sorry to have to break the news, but we’re here to stay. And not only are we here to stay, but while we’re here, we tend to make life better for the Palestinians than ANY OTHER Arab country - despite the fact that they do their best to kill us.

I’m tired of the security warnings that say not to ride buses and to stay out of the center of town. And I’m tired of feeling guilty when I go into the center of town, despite the warnings.

I’m tired of this scandal that hasn’t really even begun yet, with PM Olmert. I’m ready for some politicians (in all the countries of this world) to be people that we can trust, people who are of a higher moral fiber.

I’m just plain old tired, and I want to see something change. And the longer it takes, the less willing I am going to be to be the one to change.